I’m lost

I thought it was a dream, I thought it wasn’t real,
But pain really hurts and its really how I feel,
Memories keep coming back, and so do all the tears,
I hear your voice, and as quick as the smile came, it quickly disappears,
I don’t know what is happening, because you always held my hand.

You said you would never let go, that is what I don’t understand,
So many promises you made, and more of them broken,
Lost and confused, feels like I’m choking,
A lot of things I did not say,
Now I  can’t find my way.

I feel like a boomerang, you throw me but not only that,
Every time you throw me, I always seem to come back,
Back to you, back to pain,
Nothing has changed you still the same.

I can not start over because I don’t know where to start,
I guess that is what happens, when someone breaks your heart,
If we are supposed to follow our dreams, why can’t I follow you,
Because now I am so lost, I wish you were lost with me too.

By Sarah Ford <3