Your in my

Your in my head, your in my heart but, your not here with me. Whoa-a-a. I loved you, yeah, you loved me back, we made a good couple. Why’d we split like this? Why’d we get split up by death? Whoa-a-a. It shouldn’t have went down like that. Whoa-a-a. Yeah-h-h but you always gunna be in my heart, right beside me, through thick and thin. Even if I can’t touch you, I always know your in me somewhere, deep inside me or right out in the open, keeping my heart nice an safe. Whoa-a-a. You’ll never leave me, yeah, you’ll never leave my heart.

Y-y-yeah lets put it down like this. I loved this guy, yeah, he loved me back. We were a real good couple. We were tight like peanut butter and jelly. He was the peanut butter, yeah, he was the peanut butter. And I was the jelly, yeah, I was the jelly. You wanna know how we got spilt? Well, even if you don’t imma tell you anyways. The peanut butter died, yeah, the peanut butter died. That’s definitely to young of age to die. I mean seriously, the boy was 16. Whoa-a-a. way to young to die-e-e. he was a good guy, he didn’t do anything wrong. Whoa-a-a. Yeah. He should still be alive. Yeah, because he had no reason to die. Whoa-a-a. Peace out y’all. I’m out.

(This one is kinda a song)

By Sarah Ford <3

Every..

Every night I cry,
Every night I think where are you in my life?
Every night I think oh yea, your in heaven,
Every night I feel my heart, cause I know your there protecting me,
Every night I stare up thinking of you.

Everyday your in my head,
Everyday your in my thoughts,
Everyday your right beside me,
Every thought I can’t touch you,
You’ll still be right by my side.

Every morning I wake up thinking of you,
Every morning I wake up and look up at my ceiling,
I think your up there protecting me while I sleep,
I smile up at you, but then the tears come to my eyes,
They go streaming down my face like a waterfall,
Sometimes there sad tears ,
Sometimes there happy tears,
But mostly there sad tears,
As I do this all I hold my heart, thinking of you.

By Sarah Ford <3

It’s the…

It’s the heart afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance,
It’s the dream afraid of waking,
That never takes a chance,
It is the one who won’t be taken,
Who can’t seem  to give,
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live.

By Sarah Ford <3

Small fee

I was in pieces,
Now suddenly I am whole,
I strain, I fight,
Only your invisible hold is too tight,
My heart now beats,
Where it did not before,
I swear you entered my very core,
Throughout life, my eyes were closed,
While I ignored the warnings posed,
In desperation, I take you,
Realizing I have let in so few,
Slowly, you release me,
I thrash in the returning darkness,
While you, my love, disappear,
Now suddenly, I see you in need,
Only my heart I heed,
Following my love through alleys,
To save, to protect,
And again I am yours,
Radiance beams from me to you,
Suddenly, I feel my pain was a small fee.

By Sarah Ford <3

What did you expect?

You came into my life,
As quickly as you left,
You grabbed a cutting knife,
And sliced right through my chest.

You didn’t mean to hurt me,
But what did you expect?

My heart now cut in two,
It feels beyond repair,
Injury done by you,
God, life just isn’t fair.

You didn’t mean to hurt me,
But what did you expect?

So here we are, just friends,
But I long to be more,
Desire with no end,
Throbbing from my core.

You didn’t mean to hurt me,
But what did you expect?

By Sarah Ford <3

Tasting the raindrops

Looking in your eyes,
I feel myself falling in love with you,
You said I love you,
And I said it too.

We went to our very own special spot,
For no real reason at all,
We sat and talked and looked at one another,
And then the rain began to fall.

We could have left just as quick as we came,
But no, you wanted to stay in the rain,
You asked me a question I’ll never forget,
Have you ever tasted the raindrops?

I looked at you funny and you gave me a sigh,
The cutest look, as I wondered, why?
Why, did you ask me to taste the rain?
Well, what did I have to lose or gain?

I watched you with a careful eye,
And did the same as you,
You were looking up at the cloudy sky,
But my eyes were stuck to you like glue.

I lifted my head at the sky,
And closed my eyes really tight,
Just as I thought felt a raindrop,
You suddenly held me tight.

I opened my eyes with slight alarm,
As you kissed me soft and sweet,
I remember that kiss like it was yesterday,
I still feel those raindrops on my cheek.

I tasted the rain like I never had before,
It was worth every second of bliss,
Every time I think of that moment,
I think of my raindrop kiss.

We sat close together on that one special rock,
And we held each other tight,
Then almost as sudden as it came,
The sun came out from beneath the rain.

The most beautiful colours I’ve ever seen,
Came out on the western sky,
The sun was setting and the moment was perfect,
More than any money can buy.

As the sun slowly set and the sky lit up,
You began carving our names in our special rock,
I told you I would never forget this moment,
In my heart this memory is locked.

As our names were finished and permanently engraved,
We watched the sun finish it’s day,
We slowly got up to leave this place,
Which was a year ago this may.

I haven’t been to that spot in a year,
Where did all the time go?
I will visit this place alone this time,
And I will finally have to let go.

The memory will be in my heart forever,
But you will not remain in my mind,
I don’t know if that love, will be seen again,
For that love I cannot find.

I will go to this spot as we promised we would,
But you will not be there this time,
Why is it that you can’t keep your promise,
I know that I’m keeping mine.

Never again will I taste the raindrops,
The way I did with you,
And when I go to this spot again,
I will say goodbye to you.

By Sarah Ford <3

Like the diamond

You are like the diamond,
You glimmer and glow,
And shines so brightly,
Some, like me, draw close,
To feel your warmth, your heat,
Only to find none.

You are like the diamond,
You are bright and strong,
But you have no warmth, or love,
It’s a terrible game,
To play with people’s hearts,
Like mine.

You are like the diamond,
You will last longer than most,
But you will have no love,
No warmth to back up that bright light,
So what kind of life will that be?
Besides long?

Will you regret it someday?
Regret being so much like the diamond,
Regret being so cold,
And look for me,
And find me gone?
Can I ever leave?

No, I can never leave you,
I am drawn to this bright light,
This false sense of warmth you give,
I keep wishing and hoping.
That someday, you will give warmth,
But, this will never be.

Diamonds last forever.

By Sarah Ford <3

In love

Was in love,
But now it’s faded,
This heart of mine is now completed,
I fell in love,
But now it’s ending,
As he’s loving,
I’m pretending,
He’s in love,
But he can’t see,
What is truly deep inside of me?
Just what I’m trying too be!

Passion

We built our relationships on passion,
But passion got lost in the rain,
Or maybe it got hit by a train,
Cause when I found our passion,
It was crippled like an injured dog,
A dog with no home and no where to go,
That’s what my heart felt like after you gave up on us,
I guess since this passion faded away you just threw me away.

By Sarah Ford <3

I’m lost

I thought it was a dream, I thought it wasn’t real,
But pain really hurts and its really how I feel,
Memories keep coming back, and so do all the tears,
I hear your voice, and as quick as the smile came, it quickly disappears,
I don’t know what is happening, because you always held my hand.

You said you would never let go, that is what I don’t understand,
So many promises you made, and more of them broken,
Lost and confused, feels like I’m choking,
A lot of things I did not say,
Now I  can’t find my way.

I feel like a boomerang, you throw me but not only that,
Every time you throw me, I always seem to come back,
Back to you, back to pain,
Nothing has changed you still the same.

I can not start over because I don’t know where to start,
I guess that is what happens, when someone breaks your heart,
If we are supposed to follow our dreams, why can’t I follow you,
Because now I am so lost, I wish you were lost with me too.

By Sarah Ford <3

I want to keep

You broke my heart in two,
And took me like a bet,
With all you put me through,
I have so many regrets.

To lose you was worth it,
Although I wasn’t sure,
It seemed to make me happy,
But still so insecure.

We always said forever,
We would take it to the end,
Never give it up,
But this time my heart couldn’t mend.

It cut so deep into me,
I guess it hurt you too,
But when you did it, then you lied,
I had to say “we’re through”

I gave you all I had,
I tried to make it last,
But now all we have,
Are memories from the past.

So look me in the eye,
And tell me what you see,
A girl so broke inside,
Who’s been through misery.

And now I’m moving on,
With the pain that kills inside,
But I’m starting to forget,
By reminding myself, how you lied.

I have somebody new,
Someone to treat me right,
To talk to lovingly,
And to hold me all night.

He’s there for me when I need him,
To give me love and support,
To hold me close and wipe away,
All my signs of hurt.

To kiss me softly every night,
And to let me know he’s there,
To call me just because,
He wants me to know he cares.

Now here I go again,
Fallen so hard, so deep,
But this time it’s different,
This is one I want to keep!

By Sarah Ford <3

Pain pain go away

Pain pain go away
Please do not come back another day
Tears falling down my face
Oh how I wish for his warm embrace
Wonder if he cares about me
Wonder if this is suppose to be
How can he stand there breaking my heart
How did we allow us to grow so far apart?
My dreams of us being happy is not going to come true
All I am I feeling is down and blue
Pain pain go away
Bring me back to another day
Where he loved me and
We thought we were mean to be
I will not stop loving you that much is true
But I will be stronger in time
And not be so blue
You will always be in my heart
Even when we are apart
One day I will have that warm embrace
And tears will stop flowing down my face
Pain pain go away
Leave me alone an do not stay.

By Sarah Ford <3

Cry quietly in the corner

Cry quietly in the corner,
Don’t make a big scene,
Don’t let anyone think something’s wrong,
Remember not to be mean.

Cry quietly in the corner,
Don’t drown anyone in your sorrow,
You only have to live through to today,
You can kill yourself tomorrow.

Cry quietly in the corner,
Shield yourself from the world,
For all they know you just like to cause trouble,
Just a bratty little girl.

Cry quietly in the corner,
Don’t let then see your pain,
What’s the most they can do, help?
But what from that can you gain?

Cry quietly in the corner,
They’ll never know what’s wrong,
When you try to tell how says,
“Those damn emo songs”

Cry quietly in the corner,
Like the whiner they think you are,
Like they care about the reason,
Your wrist looks like bars.

By Sarah Ford <3

I’m nothing to you…

You say it’s nothing,
But this isn’t nothing,
Your actions tell me your done,
But in my heart you are not gone.

I’m trying so hard to let go,
I wish I could let you know,
I’m not ready to say goodbye,
But I can’t  stand hearing you lie.

What do you want me to say to you,
That I’m in love with you?
What good would that do?
I’m nothing to you.

By Sarah Ford <3

I miss him

I miss his arms around me,
I miss when there was a We,
He used to hold me and say I love you,
Now he just looks ad says I hate you.

He says it with his eyes,
No need to say it otherwise,
He has a new girl,
But she makes me want to hurl.

Anymore I hide inside,
Lock the door, he’s pushed me to the side,
I turned to the corner and cry,
Each day I almost die.

He don’t care,
He’s not there,
He’s left me here,
To dry my own tear.

He told me, once, he would always be by my side,
But now inside me, I hide,
He’s run from me,
But this event had a big possibility.

Guys run away,
They come and go, but never stay
They get your hopes up, but only to tear you down,
Don’t turn your back to them, don’t turn around.

Many say,
I’ll never go away,
But most never keep this,
Even though they promise.

They love us for a while,
Then come back with a new style,
The girls the date,
We hate.

I wish he’d wrap his arms around me again,
Put me back in heaven,
But all he’s doing is breaking my heart,
And tearing me apart.

I keep on crying,
All the time, I’m dying,
When will this pain stop,
When will I rise to the top?

I’m letting go,
Just so you know,
I think I’m okay now,
I think I’m over you, wow…

You’re gone,
So I’m moving on,
Don’t hold me back,
I’m finally ready to pack.

I’m saying goodbye,
Please don’t ask why,
I loved you, but now I’m over you,
I still love you, I promise I do.

When we first met

When we first met,
I thought our love was true.
But know I see it wasn’t,
For it left me blue.
First we were friends,
But then our feelings grew.
We one day saw we were in love,
Which was something new.
We didn’t know what to do from then on,
If we should follow our heart,
Or just stay friends.
Lovers, we thought would be smart.
But then you left and met someone new,
And left me.
How could you flee?
I guess we crossed the line,
But we are still friends,
I thought you’d love me,
To the bitter end.

 

By Sarah Ford <3

What you thought of me

You told me you loved me,
I thought it was true,
But now I’m sitting here crying,
All because of you.

You said I was the perfect girl,
So I gave you my heart,
And all you did to it,
Was tear it apart.

Eight months of nothing,
How could this be,
We were meant for each other,
But I guess you couldn’t see.

 

By Sarah Ford <3

Happy Birthday

A dedication for you
A day all you own
To reflect on the past
And to see how you’ve grown

The mistakes you made
The lessons you learned
The times you won
And the days you burned

Those you’ve known
Since you were a child
And the things you’ve done
To make it all worth while

And remember on this day
Those you’ve scarred
And those who helped you
When times were hard

And know on this day
Of those who care
Because I am one
And my love I share

 

By Sarah Ford <3

His goodbye

He drives a car with no rear-view mirror
He doesn’t look behind to see if anyone’s there
He takes his life to see what’s left
An urn of ash and a space in his chest

No-one carried on his family name
Living his days, wondering if he’s sane
An empty household and tall grass in the yard
Once happy, wrinkle free - his smile now hard

Counting the days, waiting to get ill
Asking to be taken away by his angel
Prayers go unanswered
His heart grows emptier

A man once of faith
Cries tears full of hate
The world went on and left him
Leaving him sitting alone

A drive into the ocean will put him at ease
And he’ll be carried away by a salty breeze
Then he’ll be swept away to a niche in the sky
It is his turn to say goodbye

 

By Sarah Ford <3

Shadow of doubt

Shadow of doubt
Clouds over my mind
Make my decision
I need more time 
Disease in my head
Feelings toward you
Skin so soft
Eyes so blue
Cloud over my head
Holds back my luck
Drained of affection
My life does suck

By Sarah Ford <3

I missed you

You’re back in my arms
I’ve missed you so
Hold on tighter
Don’t let the moment go
I’ve missed your lips
Pressed tightly against mine
I feel like the clouds have moved
And I can feel the sunshine
I dreamed of a fantasy vacation
Where we were all alone
But reality set in
And you turned to stone

By Sarah Ford <3

Wolf in disguise

Look at him,
Look at me,
That boy is bad,
And honestly,
He’s a wolf in disguise.
But I cant stop staring in those evil eyes.

By Sarah Ford <3 

Love

I love your hair,
I love your style,
I love the way you make me smile,
What can I say? You’re already mine,
And 24/7 your on my mind.

By Sarah Ford <3

Little Angel

Little angel go away,
Come again another day.
The angel has my ear today,
I’ll never hear a word you say,
Promised I would find a little solace
And some peace of mind,
Whatever just as long as I don’t feel so desperate & ravenous
So weak & powerless over you

By Sarah Ford <3

Don’t cry

When your heart breaks,
you want to cry,
but please, don’t,
I’ll tell you why,
just close your eyes,
forget the past,
and never let the bad feelings last.

By Sarah Ford <3